We Got Married!

My first day at work. Looking forward for OJT. ^^

Anyhoo, yes! We Got Married!!! It's a South Korean reality show. Celebrities got 'married' and live together as a newlywed. A really enjoyable show.

I watched the show because of Hyunjoong was in it. Just like when I watched BOF, Hyunjoong was the real reason however I became Junpyo and Jandi supporter. Hee.. Same goes with We Got Married, I grew fond of AnSol/AnBi couple. Forgive me Hyunjoong, don't get me wrong, I still like the Lettuce couple =) But Andy and Solbi were so sweet in their own way. I like both of them. Andy and Solbi, I wish they would date for real! Really! The part where they exchanged their couple rings over the eels cooked by Solbi, Omo! Omo! Omo! that's one of my favorite parts. And the last episode too, the farewell mission. They actually cried. T_T I wish they could've stayed longer on the show. I want to see more of them.

*sigh*

Something bothers me about this job.
- Far from my home although it's only a 30-minutes drive.
- uggh expensive toll.. fine, I'll apply for PlusMiles TnG card so I can get 5% rebate for the following month.
- Irregular working hours, the airport operates 24-hour on rotating clock, non-stop. My biological clock could turn 180-degree.

And I have this weird feeling, like something is going to happen. And I don't know whether it's a good thing or a bad thing. Maybe it's just a hunch. Maybe I'm in denial state, trying to find excuses because I still can't believe I have to go to work this Wednesday and the fact that I have to be a real adult too soon. Aih, mau rileks-rileks lagii...

yay! i guess.

I have a job =) yabedabedu!! Alhamdulillah. Not just any job, a job in the field that I desire need most. Kyaaa..~

Will start on Jan 6. Meaning that, few more days before the working life take over me. Actually, I have two job offers. One from IBM and the latter, an airport service company based in KLIA. I turned down the first one. Yep, it's crazy right, to turn down a job offer with IBM, one of the best companies to work for in the country. The latter tops the list because I want the exposure to the air transport industry as I intend to do my postgraduate studies in MSc Air Transport Management later on. The pay isn't that much compared to the amount IBM offered me. But the job scope is relevant to the courses in the postgraduate programme so the experience in this field will be a huge benefit for me. Fyi, I'm in Flight Op department. If I have no intention to further my studies, I'd probably choose IBM, really.

23 on 23rd

Life at 22 was like a roller-coaster ride, full of excitement and dramatic.

it doesn't matter, really.

No matter how much I crave for that certain thing.
No matter how much I beg and cry.
No matter how much I yearn for it to be.
IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN.

Hopelessly Hoping

Why do we always want what we can't have?

Impossible. Unattainable. Hopeless. Unachievable.
These words exist for people like me.

What I wish and hope for is so ridiculously unattainable! Impossible enough that I think I could just be in full despair for the rest of my life.

Dreams. Hopes and wishes -- I don't want to just dream, I want to make it real. I want it to happen the way I imagined it to be. The way I see it now, there is NO way it could happen anytime soon, heck not even in a million year. See, these dreams I have only happens in the movies.

It's irritating knowing that those things that I want are there but.. out of my my reach. I can see it, I can feel it, I can almost touch it. Like a dream, it vanishes abruptly when reality hits me. Them, you, us and me -- a way way looooongggg distance apart.

the heart seemed to do it somehow

Now listening to The Heart Seemed To Do It Somehow by A&T.

Oh I just finished another re-run of BOF. I think I like that drama a lot kot. The storyline is so predictable, when hatred turn into love bla bla bla... a typical lame love story. However, I can’t seem to explain how or why but I could put any episode of BOF on repeat and never get bored. The part where Jan Di left Jun Pyo at the bus stop my eyes will turn teary every time I watch it. Actually, my main reason of watching the drama was because of Hyunjoong, surprisingly I accidentally developed interest towards Lee Min Ho and Kim Bum. Aigo, they’re SO good looking! I dislike Jun Pyo’s curly hair but Min Ho’s hairstyle, two thumbs up! *drools* aahh Min Ho..
I remembered G-ta told me that her friend was in the same restaurant as Min Ho when he came to Malaysia two months ago. Come to think of it………WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH!!! *screams* Oh I wish I was there too!!!

Sometimes I wonder, let say Lee Min Ho, Kim Heechul, Lee Sungmin, Kim Bum, Park Jungmin and Kim Hyunjoong are Malays. Will I still like them this much? Going ga-ga over them? Honestly, N-O-P-E!! No way!

Hit by hallyu wave, I enjoy every second of it. Thanks to G-ta who introduced me to SJ and kpop-related stuff. However, there are some who didn’t really favor my new interest. I’m not asking for their approval or anything. But couldn’t they just at least be happy for me after everything I’ve gone through? Instead, they keep.. ugghh no need to go further about this. I was living my life miserably for the past eleven months - it was exhausting. I'm glad I found my saviors; Heenim, all SJ members, double S, Min Ho and Kim Bum. My wound actually healed which is an absolute surprise, even to me. I moved on and I never felt this good. That chunk of life, I threw it all away. It may seems illogical to turn to the people who I don't even know, who don't even speak the same language as me.. but it feels so right. The heart seemed to do it somehow. Haha.

Aih, I think my writing in English is getting worse. Please mind the grammatical error. Will ask Hanis to check this entry soon.

Off to watch Band of Brothers and BOF's Haptic Mission.